its..... its... o.....

haiz.... tat was the last straw...
haiz... it wasnt meant to be after all...

i realise... its nt meant to be.. i haven asked yet... i din manage to get her...
ururu... haiz... thnks for telling me...
its over.......

move on..... again....

hi der

hi der...

dear blog, how have you been?
its been a while since i wrote here.
a lot has happened.

im glad it did.
dough most are not good, des one tat always remind me tat its good.
thnks ururu.

i manage to gain a little light.
"smile more so tat she'd smile wif u", eh...
i smiled at tat tot.
never fallen so deeply b4.
thnks. im glad. my pillar n support.

qirin asked hows life?
never really tot abt it.
such a simple qn. have u answered it b4?
miss u, ururu.

I love you

three words wif so much meanin.... 2 people from 2 diff worlds... nvr tot dey cld fall for each other... nvr tot dey wld feel so much for each other...

thru smiles.... thru battles.... thru sadness.... they realise they... they wanted each other...unable to touch anymore.... 3 words.... 3 words said to mean how much dey feel towards each other... b4... b4 he disappears......

Guitar sounds lingers in my ears...

i seem to hate night shift nowadays... i dunno why... i woke up wondering what happened to the energy i use to have after every nite shift. even manage to go out.. after work ended.

i wondered where the Nergy went to... hmmmm... wer...

kinda nice lingerin for the HWK sounds...

yesterday's work was sucky.... haiz... sometimes i really wonder wat they wan... not sure actually.

ok... my day finished jus like tat... gawd... i can do more then this... usually it feels longer then this... hmmm... ok after this is bass practice... i think... eyes still so sleepy.... fuck man.... how come ar....

ok.... stop... no vulgarz.... no ciggie... no drinks.... zzzzz sleep.... haha...

Shopping spree

Monday... it din feel like a monday...

i din mind... woke up at 3.... tats pm i mean... lol.... met ururu late nite... on sunday... so glad... missed her so much... so much to do... so little time for ppl i know... including her...

went music hunting today... with my crappy bro.... the real one i mean.... went to search for a bass bag.... gawd... so hard to find sia in sg.... the super protective one... siak.... went city hall... bugis... ps... all over the place and i cant find it.... shiiiittttttt......

kesou... idiot... aiyo.... chialat... have to get it online den... haha.... too bad... online shopping!!!!!!!!!! haha... like jus know wif bro shopz for cables.... haha... for my bass amp.... woohooo... yessaaa.... now im so ready for the upcoming appointment... yessa.... den chillz at marsiling... lepak siak.... ala-meen.... i think tats the correct spelling... i think so... i love food....

met marc after tat.... ate prata... long time never eat wif him... kinda weird at first.... long time nvr meet n all.... haha... miss ya man... gotta meet u more often... chilll... relax... eat prata... kinda fallen in love wif prata.... cheap n yummy.... mmmmmmmmmmmmm prata.................

idiot dictionary doesnt have the spelling for prata sia.... stupidz.... got a new band to listen to liao.... hahaha... nice.... wed going marc house wif ururu.............

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HANG BAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wat if...

wat if you had the power to do anything..

wat would you do? the power to change things. the power to alter the very essence of your life. wat would you do?

to try wld seek oneself to be questioned. imagine u wanting all that u ever wanted. car. money. house. life. wife. kids. there is a but........ der is always a but....

its not der. unsaid. unseen. the presence is ever growing. getting bigger. each of ur desire fulfilled, it gets stronger. the risk of attachment to things tat wld matter. things tat wasnt der in the first place. risk of losing it.

wat if u had the ability to see all tat. to change the course of ppl's life. the ability to mend emotions. wld u take it? reach out? or seek help?

the ability..... abilities.... dats something i hold dear.... something i fear to use.... as a person, a human being... im most aware of wat my capability is... wat i can overcome... alone..

wif someone close to my heart, i feel i am able to release my attachments.... to break free... however habits takes time. n time isnt stopping for anyone... make time for yourself... make time for ur life... make time for ur love ones...

mend....

all the way inside

all the way...
how ever how much he cares for you...
words dun describe the moments u feel...
seeing each other...

its eternal...
like the stars all lite up inside...
everything jus shines wif ur embrace...
holding each other....

everyday...
wif these swinging fingers...
turned pendant...
close to my heart...

wish for ur dreams...
wish for ur rest...
wish u well...
for all ur wish come true...

here....
eyes closed...
ur the only one i think abt...
in my heart...
in my mind...
now....