headaches and heavy rains

its a cold evening tonight...
stepped back from town... i miss the rain.. i missed water..

der are several things tat happened lately..
work mates have been great.. fun n great... i love my psp..

been visiting town alot lately.. wat to do.. so near workplace.. so nice..
kinda missed walking ard.. esp wif my new hair.. lol..
so many ppl looking sia.. like alien.. haha..

the same song again huh... i guess a lonely september is always the one..
yare yare... sat down n played final fantasy tactics, to distract myself..
sometimes, u wonder if... wen u reach out, will someone hold u...
maybe you need to reach out further... to hold on to them...

hanging n stoned.. tats all tat will happen at times..
maybe wen years gone by, des things to be rem.. and perhaps regret...
may all ur dreams come true..
23 eh.. a number i used to cherish..
tc... time to let go of the memories..
someday we'll meet again...

Another week ahead

another day past. another moment.

today was a regular sunday. came back from prawn fishing at 7am. shagged to the max. tis been a while since i had such relaxing moments.. jus the rod and water.. peaceful. din noe if the rest shared the moment..

had a relaxing time wif qalieshah yest.. played blocks wif her.. so cute.. wished she was so chubby all the time.. so smilies.. hehe.. i miss her..

2 more months till the end of the year.. so many things happened.. sometimes it hard to keep track huh. its been fun.. listening to music nowadays..

Do u know how i feel when i look at you?

i came across this song.. the scene.. the background.. the history...
after weeks... i managed to fall into tears..
why so.. i dunno... perhaps its the sudden realization of loss..


sometimes a longing for someone u love to acknowledge...
keeping inside so deep.. only to fall into tears wen u realise the presence of it..
to see the person, then wish she know how u feel.. wat u're going thru..
ur weakness... ur strength..

i felt the sadness in those words... Luleh... Luleyah....
sudden sweetness.. i rem the feelings wen i set eyes on her...
looking at the sky.. clouds... wer did the dreams go..
the heart n hands reaching out for her...

aishiteiru...
who do you sing for...
who do you fight for...
somehow these words come to my mouth..
i miss you...

im sorry..
i only manage to take 1 out of the 13 yrs of ur solitude....
immerse in the voice...