tired

gosh.... its 3pm..
i said tat twice today.. weather's fine.. jus wished it wld rain... rain damn it..

haha.. merepek...
i was watching the sky turn blue today... windy i tell u.. nearly got caught in an accident earlier today... mmm... so close... taxis today... so chialat...

wat to do... sometimes ppl dream of big things.. sometimes the dreams get in the way.. oversized... not proportional...

i've been irritating others lately.. kinda fun... getting lazy also.. must be my room... zzz.. dunno why.. so lazy...

gosh.. gosh gosh.. i miss walking...

came across pics of yesteryear... an old grp i used to be in... haha.. funny how it turned out... perhaps its mean to be after all.. used to have fun wif em... here's a tribute...

i noe i noe!!

its the bed!! its the bed at makes me all slpy n swollen up... haha... well wat to do.. 1 more week to go... soon i'll have euff energy to rule the world... wahahaha...

so lately its been medal of honor and monster hunter all the while.. slowly going ard having sahur at carousel, smokin at bp, geylang walking. nothing much.. haha.. not much energy to move ard i guess..

im suppose to plan another outing this month.. haha.. shit.. i wonder wanna go wer.. hmmm... another outing eh.. shit.. i got 1 day to think of where to go... argh.... dots...

raya coming soon.. i saw my baju kurung!!!! ready liao... hahaha... whitey... mmm.. compliment my skin eh... i wonder if mom had the same colour... so long never see my niece... i miss her... dots...

gtg slp... later over sleep die...

The Created Void

Immersed in times of past,
Long gone from the memories of smiles..


hmmm, was kinda paranoid lately. wen i woke up.
been having 3 dreams in a row. bad way to wake up i say.
kinda swollen eyes building up.
gosh. i look like shit.
feel sleepy n all.

its been 2 months since i opened the fall of eternia..
kesou... wari... haiz.. i better bathe first b4 going out...
need to settle some errands..

here's something to listen to..




the earth isnt jus another desolate place..

Lately

lately its been cold... rain is kinda comforting...
12:41am

laying down, at jane...
she's damaged...
mmmmm...
kept looking at the moon again... its round... so round.. its here again i guess...

mom's still awake...
perhaps i go eat her epok2 for a while.. yummy...

here's a song for the week ahead... it seems funny how life imitates good music....


a moment suspended in time

Held captive, I'm a prisoner
In the back room where the water leaks and I'm oh, so cold
Command me on what to do, but we both know neither you or I are in control

There's nothing left for me here
I'm grabbing on to what's left of this hole.
It's all too real this can't be happening

Never again, ever again, will I say I'm OK
I'm scared of the fate that will become mine

No time to talk you know the drill

Under my desk this can't be it
I'm only dreaming, I've got to be dreaming
But I can't get up.
No time to talk, not this time, this is my place
This is where I arrange

It's so funny how we see things so clear when we have no time left to live

So lay back now and take it is
I won't say a word .
I won't say anything

I can't believe how it feels
To stand here in this room
And feel like it's going to blow
I think we're all going to blow

I've got to be dreaming
We've got to be dreaming
Please don't wake me up
This is the end.

In return

You’re pushing me out
You’re pushing me when all I do is not enough
All I do is not enough for you
You’ve pushed me down
You’ve pushed me down
Well I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you

This distance won’t keep your words from screaming my name
This distance won’t keep your words from smothering me
If I could keep you out
If I could keep you...

You’re pushing me out
You’re pushing me when all I do is not enough
All I do is not enough for you
You’ve pushed me down
You’ve pushed me down
Well I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you

Your throat is worn away
You’re still screaming my name
You scream relentlessly
If I could keep you out
If I could keep you…

You’re pushing me out
You’re pushing me when all I do is not enough
All I do is not enough for you
You’ve pushed me down
You’ve pushed me down
Well I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you

You pushed me then pulled me back to where we started (where we started)
You pushed me then pulled me back to where we started (where we started)
You pushed me then pulled me back
Back to where we started
Back to where we started
Lost, confused from this abuse
Back to where we…

You’re pushing me out
You’re pushing me when all I do is not enough
All I do is not enough for you
You’ve pushed me down
You’ve pushed me down
Well I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you

You’ve pushed me out
You’ve pushed me out (I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you)
You’ve pushed me out
You’ve pushed me out (I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you)

You pushed me then you pulled me back to where we started
(where we started)
Well I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you
You pushed me then you pulled me back to where we started
(where we started)
Well I’ll try and I’ll try again
I’ll try and I’ll try again for you

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

yay... my first post on my bday.. yay...

lot of things happen today... well, jus another normal day.... NOT!!!!

ok ar my bday was ok... din really think much... woke up at 4.. dl songs... den put in my ipod.. hehehe.. smiles to myself.. den at buka time, my fav all awaited album was finished... UNDEROATH'S NEW ALBUM.. lost in separation.. sweet... sweet i tel ya.. all the more inspired for me to make new songs..

added lots of new song into my ipod... den went jamming.. so cool...music was great.. we got 3 new songs lined up... hopefully it gets better... recording starts early next month.. go go go...

then went to watch movie... was kinda bored waiting for 1 hrs plus.. but im glad i got my ipod.. wat wld i do w/o it... have to make back up in my fon.. in case my ipod fails... hmmm...

got a cheesecake... and a file... a momento from lily fish and afa... THNKS GUYS.. its nice.. the movie too... and the mac meal... and the pool... thankful for all the times spent together... all the free rides i get.. hehehe... thnks for tolerating mua... hahaha....

tml is rest day.. hopefully baby comes over... cutey cutey...

i din really have any wish this bday... if i rem correctly i got lots of things to wan to have last yr.. but somehow this year i dun hope for much... maybe happiness to my family.. frens... and relatives... ppl who noe me... sorry for my rudeness.. haha.. but tats me...

hopefully its a better yr ahead... though i dun really celebrate bday... sorry to fish afa n lily for spoiling their plans... its just tat i love music... thnks guys... n dear... hehe... poke poke... virtually... cant meet... sobs... hope ur well... i've always liked 7...

so wats ahead... i wonder... more songs to keep inside my fon? almost forget my other fons... dots... tml rest rest rest... n clean house... yay... love cleaning... weeeeee... tc guys... 605 liao... nak tido...

fly away...

"When will you be home?" she asks
As we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away